How I wish I can be with her whenever she needs me, however I'm always stuck in the wrong timing either with studies, projects, schools,exams,trainings. I really do care for her so much because
I LOVE HER.
I really feel sucks when she need cares I can't be with her. At times I really feel like ending my life. which I know it's silly yet that's the facts how I really feels.
Jealousy strikes me like million of knife stabbing me, it's carving into my heart in pain, So pain that I wish my heart could have stop beating for a moment and numb my pain but it can't. I can't deny the fact I'm jealous. I felt the challenge by him, the way he wrote on your fb make me feel so pain and jealous, guess what they really said "jealousy kills". However I'm really lost, so lost, yet I didn't vent myself towards anything cause I know she will hate it, but I really have no idea where can I go, that is why I wrote it here.
Idly I stare blank in my room, tears start rolling off from my eyes where I don't know when can it stop, I felt pain that's why, what I know and confirm is that she is the one and only girl I'm devoted in, the one who I dote, the one who I love, the one who I care and the only one who I love her so deeply that nothing else can replace.
She is my soulmate, I affirm that I have finally found her, without her I feel so damn lost, meaningless, as though myself with my body but not my soul. I didn't want much from her but my most basic request is just want to be happily and stay with her forever.
I really love you my DEAR Cassandra low.

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